I find myself groveling a lot seeking forgiveness. Seeking forgiveness is extremely important when mistakes are made. Seeking forgiveness because you are "always wrong" is not healthy at all. It can be very humiliating and destructive because when I grovel I have little to no self worth. After all if "everything is my fault" there is no room for me to move forward and grow because I am just a failure.
What it does for me, is that it allows me to be comfortable in the bottom of the self-dug pit of pain since there becomes no way out. So if you live your life this same way, you become a failure and are truly not worth or even worthy of who God created you to become.
I am tired of being a P.O.S. in my heart because God did not create me to be this way. In fact, I disrespect God when I choose to live in the pit, because I am a child of the Baby Jesus we celebrate in the Christmas season. I deserve to give myself forgiveness and then instead of groveling to others, I need to forgive them.
“Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace. And always be thankful.” - Colossians 3:12-15 NLT
Climb boldly out of the pit. Forgive yourself. Instead of groveling and begging for forgiveness, go and forgive the other first.
Peace,
PB
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